DAY ONE: January 1, 2014:
DAY TWO: January 2, 2014:
That reminds me. I’ve gone two whole days without a cigarette. ….. Today I was at the local dollar store where I usually buy my pack of smokes. The clerk, who I barely know, rang up my groceries and then asked me if I wanted cigarettes, too, like usual (they keep em locked behind a glass case). I told her: “No, I quit smoking. New Years resolution.” “All RIGHT!!” she shouted with a big smile. “HIGH FIVE!!” She raised both of her arms high over her head and we slapped hands. (It sure is different living in a little town as opposed to the big city.)
DAY THREE: January 3, 2014:
Three days without a cigarette. I feel like crap. . . . I’m reminded of that Mark Twain quote: “Its easy to quit smoking. I’ve done it dozens of times.” . . . . I’m starting to think that Mark Twain was a bit of an asshole. . . .
DAVE FOUR: January 4, 2014:
Was just looking at this beautiful photo of an Arizona sunset. Reminds me that I really wish I had a cigarette. . . .
DAY FIVE: January 5, 2014:
Managed to go several minutes without thinking of cigarettes. I think I’m getting “over the hump” . . .
DAY SEVEN: January 7, 2014:
I just want to remind myself what a STUPID habit it is. I mean, taking a dirty weed and igniting it with flame and inhaling toxic smoke into my lungs…. Its pretty stupid and irrational when I think of it. When you really think about it, it makes no sense that I REALLY WISH I HAD ONE OF THOSE GODDAM SMOKES RIGHT NOW!!! … . . . It occurs to me how much money I’ve wasted on cigarettes over the years. I figure if I’m smoking a pack a day, at a minimum of $6 a pack, that’s about $200 a month. That comes out to about $2,500 a year. A whopping $25,000 over the last 10 years. $250,000 over a hundred years.. . . Money that I could have used to buy much better drugs. . . .
DAY EIGHT: January 8, 2014:
I’ve gone 8 days without smoking cigarettes. You know why? Because I have will power! I have moral character! I have resolve! I have true grit…….I have a strong and compelling NEED TO GET ONE OF THOSE GODDAM CIGARETTES AT THIS EXACT MOMENT AND SMOKE IT UP!!!!! ahhh darn it all. . . . . One of the unexpected side-effects of quitting smoking is that the beer now tastes like crap. I can’t even drink it. I guess because for 30 years the beer always went with the cigarettes. And now it tastes different without the cigarettes. It was like alternating between hot and cold sensations (the perfect balance). I’d have a beer in one hand and a cigarette in the other. I’d go back and forth. Take a big hit off my beer. Then a drag off my cigarette. Sit there watching the smoke curl into space and ruminating on the strange gears spinning around in my head. Now, with only beer and no cigarettes its like being in a rowboat with only one oar. You just row around in circles instead of plunging forward. . . . I’ve managed to solve this problem by switching from beer to bourbon whiskey. If only all of life’s problems were so easy to solve. Plus, it segues naturally into my second New Years resolution: “Quit drinking beer.” This might seem stupid, to quit beer and go to whiskey. But it reminds me of that ancient Hindu adage: “Use a thorn to take the thorn out of your foot.” In other words, you use one vice to help you get rid of another vice. And, after a couple of big pulls on the whiskey, the whole concept starts to make perfect sense. . .
DAY NINE: January 9, 2014:
I think I’m finally getting over the oral craving for cigarettes. But I might be starting to over-compensate. . .