Acid Heroes

May 22, 2016

My life as an artist

Filed under: Backwords from Ace — Ace Backwords @ 10:03 pm
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When I was younger I thought I was a brilliant artist. I thought I was one of those rare people who come along every now and then who have a special vision.

Over a 40 year period I amassed this huge body of artwork. Sometimes when I look at it, it seems pretty impressive. Other times I ruefully think: “Its just a storage locker full of paper.”

Of course I’ve met plenty of no-talent dilletantes over the years who were convinced they were geniuses. And I admit I’m hardly objective when it comes to evaluating my work.

Now I’m an old man. And I’ll probably be dead soon. And my best work is probably behind me. And none of this stuff really even matters to anybody else. It was just a weird daydream I started with myself 40 years ago.




  1. Well, your post coincided with the end of chapter four “Hunter S. Thompson” that I just finished reading. “Next thing I knew I was riding my bicycle down the street, peddling faster and faster. But where was I going? I couldn’t remember. I was going nowhere. I was lost in the weird Nowhere Zone that was my weird nothing life.”

    Comment by Deborah K Jamil — May 23, 2016 @ 1:33 am | Reply

  2. I think you are a very good artist. You are also a terrific person. Your moods are affecting your judgment of your work. You need healthy food, some help, more cats, cut down on the beer maybe, good shelter, good cat food. a mood is a funny thing. Take it easy on yourself. I hope you try to survive a long time in health, with cats. I am 10 years older and I think I am in a lot better shape than you are. Richard. Head for the hills. Plop art. Remember Duncan

    Comment by Richard Hill — May 23, 2016 @ 7:58 pm | Reply

    • Yeah, you’re probably in better shape than me. No doubt due to good genes and a healthy lifestyle (didn’t your dad keep driving until he was nearly 100?). But people often comment how surprisingly youthful I look, considering my own lifestyle and bad habits. In spite of it all, I’ve pretty much been healthy all my life. But I’m sure the drinking and other things will probably catch up to me eventually.

      Comment by Ace Backwords — May 24, 2016 @ 9:54 pm | Reply

  3. You have created and published an historical and fascinating body of work without euphemisms and without worrying about being politically correct. I would say that is a worthwhile, major, and very rarely achieved accomplishment. And I know you have admiring fans who recommend your work to others in their speeches before audiences–so it’s not just me.

    Comment by Deborah K Jamil — May 23, 2016 @ 9:55 pm | Reply

    • Thanks, Deborah. What you say is probably true. But I think that just about anyone — no matter what their accomplishments or status in life — can some times get that feeling of: “What was it all worth? If anything.” Ya know? That: “Is that all there is to life?” feeling. . . . . That’s what I was sort of trying to express.

      Comment by Ace Backwords — May 24, 2016 @ 9:57 pm | Reply

  4. I can relate to that feeling. I was responding more to your statement, “And none of this stuff really even matters to anybody else.” It does matter.

    Comment by Deborah K Jamil — May 25, 2016 @ 1:21 am | Reply

  5. It matters to me you big doofus!

    Comment by Another Mary — May 29, 2016 @ 1:58 am | Reply

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