Acid Heroes

August 30, 2016

Brain damage

Filed under: Backwords from Ace — Ace Backwords @ 7:47 pm
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If I knew I was only going to get one brain I would have taken better care of it.

Back around 2005 I had an odd drug experience one night. I was in my office where I lived at the time. And I took a hit of pot from this water pipe.

Next thing I know. I’m lying on the floor. Completely paralyzed. I couldn’t move a muscle.

I laid there on the floor like that for about 5 hours. I started to get more and more scared. Like: “Fuck. I’ve slipped into this weird coma state. I’ve lost the ability to control my limbs. Whatever that part of the brain is that allows us to command our arms and legs to move. It had been severed.”

After about 5 hours I started to get really scared. Like I would be trapped in my brain for the rest of my life. Unable to communicate with the outer world.

To this day I don’t know what caused it. Perhaps the pot had been tainted with some weird chemical.

But I vividly remember thinking: “I’ve suffered brain damage.”

The weirdest thing was. My mind was still functioning normal. I was acutely aware of everything that was going on. But the part of my brain that is connected with my motor skill movements had somehow been disconnected.

Anyways, thankfully, after lying on the floor of my office for 5 hours like a paralyzed sack of shit, I gradually began to regain my motor skills. WHAT A RELIEF THAT WAS!


Eventually I was finally able to stand up. It was around 4 in the morning by that point. I put my shoes on. And went outside. To get some fresh air. Staggered down the street — Shattuck and University — for a couple blocks. Just to try and clear the cobwebs in my brain. I remember there was a drizzling rain. So it must have been the winter.

Shortly after — a couple weeks later — my left eye went blind. And why I’m thinking about it now is because I notice in this photo that I just took that the left side of my face is kind of lop-sided. My mouth and my eye.

So I probably experienced some kind of brain damaging stroke. My mind was never quite as sharp after that. But most people never noticed. Because I’m still a pretty sharp motherfucker as it is. But I noticed.

But I remember thinking. “I was almost one of the first people to OD from smoking pot. I really can’t do anything right.”







1 Comment »

  1. Hey Ace – if you’ve ever heard of “sleep paralysis,” I believe this is probably what you experienced. My brother Steve and I have both suffered from it off and on since the ages of 15 and 14 respectively. It’s the condition in which you have full consciousness of your surroundings but absolute zero motor control. There is a lot of (new) information on sleep paralysis on the Internet, especially as of the last two years. Maybe this will be of interest to you,

    Comment by A.P. — August 31, 2016 @ 4:37 pm | Reply

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