I have so many unhealthy habits.
Crappy diet. Massive alcohol and drug consumption. Sleeping outside in the cold and rain as a homeless bum for decades at a stretch. Etc etc.
But I think the one thing that saved me. The one reason I’m still in surprisingly good health at age 61. In spite of my bad habits: I don’t repress my emotions.
If I feel anger I express my anger. If I feel sadness I express my sadness. If I feel fear I express my fear. Etc.
If you block your feelings? Its like emotional constipation. You have to let those feelings flow through your body so you can release them and get them out of your system. Like a good dump. Otherwise they fester inside you like a cancer.
Some people think “emotions” are like this airy ethereal thing. But emotions are also this physical, chemical presence in your body.
When you feel fear, your body surges with adrenalin. When you feel happiness, your body surges with endorphins.
The tricky part is finding ways to express these surges of crazy emotions while doing minimal damage to other people. To be able to express your anger and your rage where youre just blowing off steam and not hurting anybody..